Forgiveness...

I'm so behind on our blog. I barely have time to turn around these days. When I do get a few minutes on the computer, I like to catch up on some of my favorite blogs.

Today, this post encouraged me. And I love the video she linked to of Take My Life. See below and be blessed.

I struggle alot with being home everyday with my kids. I love them and would give my life for them and I know God has me here to refine my soul for His Glory. I'm very stubborn. I never saw myself as a stay at home mom, only a part time stay at home mom. But God has me here and I'm thankful to see my children learn in front of my eyes. I will never have these days back with them. BUT...it is hard. It is the most diffcult part of my journey so far in life. It is so hard to not compare myself to other moms that seem to have it all together most days. Then my God reminds me that I am to define myself through Him and no one or nothing else.



I have a lot of catching up to do...more updates to follow...hopefully.

so blessed
d

Prayer

I was reminded this morning just how much I love this song. To listen, go here.

*Breath of *Heaven

I have traveled
Many moonless night
Cold and Weary
With a babe inside
And I wonder What I've done
Holy FatherYou have come
Chosen me now
To carry your son

I am waiting
in a silent prayer
I am frightened
by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now

chorus:
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Breath of Heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven
Lighten my darkness
Pour over me, your holyness
For your holy Breath of Heaven
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Do you wonder
As you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me

chorus

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I have always loved this song but this morning it overwhelmed me and blessed me. Why? Since having Stewart and Silas and finding out that Silas has Ds, many people have told me how blessed we are; how Jeff and I are the perfect parents to have a child with Ds; how blessed our family is and will be by having Silas. With all this, the past few weeks I have been humbled by being given such a huge blessing. Why us? Overwhelmed by the love of our God that He loves us so much to bless us in such a huge way. We sing Jesus Loves You to our children every night and I believe it. But I guess I never realized just how much He loves me. That realization has overtaken me this Christmas season. I'm so thankful He loves me, that Jesus was born and that he gave himself for me...for grace.

So this morning I found myself praying the words above because I feel so inadequate in my calling.

I am waiting
in a silent prayer
I am frightened
by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now

Do you wonder
As you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me

Should a wiser one have my place? And His answer is...NO!

My God is perfect.

He makes no mistakes!

d